《孤独》
被人群包围 却发觉自己的渺小
僵硬的笑容 才察觉自己的泪水
安静地呼吸着周遭的空气
怎么连空气都凝结成落寞
寂寞的身影藏匿于茫茫人海
被埋没却从未融入
无视的存在
让人倍感
孤独

exam is over!!!!! actually i m not in exam mood at the start, so it doesn't matter dat if exam is over or not, i jus wanna say only..haha, but if i m in secondary sch, i'll be on cloud nine when exam ends.
immediately after exam, i went to shopping alone. haiz...cant find anyone accompany me u c. the feeling of shopping alone is quite gd, wondering around, going to wherever i like, looking at watever i wan. feeling relax. the only bad thing is i'll realise how lonely i was. blah.
basically did window shopping. bought 4 chinese books, one of which is for my youngest sister.^^ i mus really read more chinese bks, i cant tolerate the thought dat my chinese is going to "tui bu" since i m dun hav chinese anymore and m interacting wif mostly english speaking friens....><
fruit basket22 is out!! finished reading it half an hour ago. it's nice^^ sweet and happy storylines. they r finally together.^^ wondering if 22 is the last epi, it seems like ending to me>.<

4 more hours and my mum will be here. i really miss my dad and mum. din c them for nearly half a year le.
and i m going home tmr!!!i cant wait to fly home immediately. lala~~
haha.
and yesterday was my father birthday. sent him a funny msg, but no present for him. haha.
20days later will be mum bd. dad's on 6/6, mum on 26/6. is easy to rmb.

came back from physiology common test. the paper is 1 and a half hour, but i able to finish it in 45min, so got off early. i cant undstd y my classmates or maybe friens dun wanna leave even they finished their paper, saying dat they nid to check and rechecked and re-recheck, maybe they will come up with answers they previously dun know. for goodness sake, dunnoe means dunnoe, even usit there for 1whole day, u wont be able to 'know' the ans. i noe i m getting quite pissed. not in a gd mood recently.
tmr no test, 2 more tests to go on wed and thurs.
maths stupid assignment dat is on famous mathematicians. physio essay, topic is "Depression: A psychological or neurological condition?" . microbio project on madcow disease.
all not even started. and i m going back to m'sia this friday. no internet at home. all works due on sch reopens.
all these equal to= i hav to complete my works b4 fri, and i m having tests till thurs.
*sigh
my heart starts to beat abnormally again, though quite frequent lately.

jus came back home from sch and taken a nice shower^^ feeling refresh now~~

yesterday, i skipped my chemistry lecture(for the first time), got my friends to tap card for me, and able to go home earlier...bad, very bad... but i was happy.haha. i had 4 hrs break before chem lecture starts yesterday, i m getting impatient as time slowly crawl by, therefore, i decided to go home lor.>< feeling guilty.

i m having too much of fried food recently, resulting in a tickling sensation in my throat, hope dat wont get sick now.~.~ argh!!! and pimples start growing on my face...>.<

my er zi's bd is coming, my 'qing ai de' and i r really having a hard time to think of a present for her... i hav seriously no brain juice le. haiz... wat to do now??? racking my brain again...
really felt jealous of someone who is having e-learning week now >.<
my common tests r coming.
jealous of someone who dun hav common tests....>.<
how wonderful would it be if i can take a break from life.


seasonings of life are pleasant surprises =)
everyone likes surprises, don't u?

life is getting busier these days.
the pace is too fast.
i m trying to catch up.

feeling lonely despite being surrounded by friends.
feeling down despite the smiles on my face.
feeling hurt despite i already know dis is wat gonna turn out to be.

second post of the day. jus feel like i hav to write to relieve some of my pressure.>.< let me continue, after i phtocopied my stuffs, i discovered dat i haven apply for student pass!!! therefore i rushed online, get the application done, and there gone my 1hr.....T.T after the application, i straight away went to discuss abt my project online wif friends....zzz lucky my mum is here, atleast she can listen to my complaints... haha let me vent out all the unhappy things.... is gd to hav mum beside u. ^^

wow, extremely, super, very,extraordinary exhausted..... headache, sore shoulders, stiffed neck, heavy eyelids..... well, i m sick AGAIN!!!but right now, at least my fever subsided.
dis time record was----39.6 -_- (i noe it's lame)

ok, jus completed the tuition grant online application which is supposedly to be done long time ago. but as i m so so so absent minded dat i only realise i hav to do online application when the sch called me dis morning. it's so troublesome, and i was really very tired after yoga and the stupid CATS class. as a result i rushed home and get the TG done asap which deadline is 5pm today, then squeeze out the last drop of my brain juice to think of an object to modify(dis is my CATS assignment and is due on 5.30pm today)
phew, i cant take it anymore......................

still, later i nid to go back to my secondary sch to collect my O-lvl cert, however, cos i m going to meet my qing ai de and dear er zi, i still can put on a little smile on my face despite my tireness.^^
u think dats all for my day? u r wrong!
after coming back from sec sch, i hav to go photocopy stuffs for the application of singapore PR tmr...zzz
photocopying all the stuffs, prepare all the forms, prepare all the neccessary things... i think i will drop dead immeadiately after i done these things>.<
and i hav to take passport size photo.
the next thing dat will put on another big grin on my face will be---- my mum coming to sg today...lalala~(i used LY trademark singing) haha

my doctor told me dat i m sick mostly due to exhaustion, i dun believe at first, but after today...ahem...the doctor is right anyway.
oh ya, speaking of doctor, i hav a piece of physiology assignment which is due next week......
and i cant believe wat i hav to do when i read the assignment....
it goes something like dis:

Melissa is 28yr-old attorney living in Glasgow. she is in the second trimester of pregnancy of her first child. .....she notice dat she tires very easily and is short of breath from slightest exertion. she oso experiences periods of light-headedness.
her blood sample is like dis:
RBC count: 3.5million/mm3
hemoglobin: 7g/dl
hematocrit:30%
serum iron:low

when i get dis assignment, i was like--OMG!! wat sort of things r these?!
well, lucky dat dis is gp wrk.....haiz

quite a lot of things happening these days
maybe i shouldn't say "a lot"
is jus dat i din expect them.....
i m confused now
feeling puzzled*
how come things turned out to be so unacceptable.





well,
i m not so ready

hi^^ i m here again~ feel dat i haven been here quite a long time><
haiz.... no choice, quite busy lately
i hav 2 projects to handle, one is abt "mad-cow disease" and the other is abt the "endocrine system'"...zzz.zzZ
actually i m quite interested in the Mad-cow disease project, the disease sounds 'cool' haha, weird rite, but i really like dis kind of stuff....O.o so, dis is microbiology...
microbiology practical is really really fun, not only is the teacher is gd and humorous, the handling and culturing of microbes r so fun^^ haha. maybe i hav made a right decision for choosing the course..

tmr i m going to hav yoga class, dunnoe how will it turn out to be.
hope it will be a enjoyable session..

i start to get use to poly life now, especially the long rides to and fro the schs...swt..-_-

eh... i dunnoe wat to write.... and my post seems short>.< and i seems to write randomly and craps...
maybe i should stop here.




i m still not ready
or
when will i?

new life

from monday onwards till now, the week has flew bylike a breeze. dis is the first week of my poly life, and i m still adjusting to the new lifestyle, everything is so different! for the first 3 days,i really cant get use to it...>< got a culture shock, haha, cos it was very tiring.
my sch is situated at one of the highest spot in the whole poly, i nid to climb up the quite steep slope everyday.... and i m always out of breath when i reached the LSCT, which is my sch.>_< haha...T.T poor me..poor LSCT students....
however, the practicals seems to be quite fun.^^ especially the microbiology pract, it was relly fun...^_^, we learned to make GNA, which is a medium for micro-organism to live in. and we r going to "culture" microrganism, haha, how excited^^.
the WORST thing is---- i hav to learn A-maths.....!#!%@&%(&))(_*^$ i hav tried so hard to pass a-math during secondary sch, and finally i thought it was all over after Olvl, then i nid to take dis sunject again....haiz....fell like banging the wall><
today, i've chosen Yoga to be my sport & wellness's sport. which means dat yoga will be one of my modules dat last for only one semester or 13weeks. the funny thing is, at the end of dis module, we hav to take an "exam" to see if we pass the module. i was wondering.....wat r they going to test us for yoga....test our flexibility? haha..
poly life can be fun if u learn to enjoy.... dis is wat i figure out since dis week...^^