life cant be a bed of roses, even if it is, not to forget dat roses hav thorns, many thorns. (i wonder how many thorns r there in a bed of roses)
therefore, u can always expect ups and downs monthly,weekly or even daily.
有时候，会觉得生活平淡无味甚至没意思，身边的人也不了解自己，一个人活得有点累，就连抬头看到的天空也是灰色的。
然后，因为身边的人们的不谅解，渐渐的开始把自己隔离开来，慢慢的在不自觉的情况下封锁了自己。在周围建了一堵无形的墙，连自己都不清楚墙又多高,有多厚，有多大的范围。
躲在围墙里，期待着有一天会有人能明白自己。时间久了越等越心灰意懒，内心的压抑得不到释放，唯有让眼泪一遍又一遍地濡湿了脸颊。
更难受的是，在别人的面前还必须强颜欢笑，掩饰自己心里的伤痕却在角落里独自舔伤。这个时候，眼角里的漠然，正吞噬着世界一切的美好，再美好的景物也会被那日渐成长的漠然扭曲成一片凄凉。
就因为自己的不幸，开始了怨天尤人的游戏，妒嫉别人获得的被认同，而同情自己的被遗忘。
内心的难受已依法不可收拾。当泪水掉落的声音只有自己听到的时候是何等的孤寂。
以上我有切肤的感受，曾几何时it filled my diary...
后来，时间让我领悟。身边的人不曾了解自己，而自己本身有尝试过去了解身边的人吗？
当抱怨着不被体谅的同时有没有想象过自己需要的是怎么样的体恤。
我发觉，只有自己才能明白自己想要什么，要别人当自己的蛔虫不是太强人所难了。
对了，在建围墙的时候是否忘记建一扇门？把自己隔离开来却没把藏钥匙的地方让别人知道，没给别人线索去开那扇门，等多久都将一无所获。
当躲在围墙里拒人于千里之外时，难过的不仅是自己，痛入心扉的何尝不是把自己拉拔长大的至亲。他们没说，没有显示，也没有表示，可我相信，他们掩饰情感的功夫比我们更出神入化，独自舔着无法想象的巨大伤口。而孩子的不体谅，也往往在那伤口上洒上了盐。回想起来，以前的我太让父母担心了。
每个人都有自己的烦恼，所以有时候忽略了一些事清、甚至忽略了孩子，这时候身为孩子该做的不应该是抱怨他们，而是给父母适当的提醒。
一些事情发生了并不能马上就解决了。受过时间的洗礼，将能更全面地看到问题的症结。
其实，有时候让人捉摸不透，也是一种生活乐趣。
而我，也用了一年的时间。
ignorant is bliss... so is being simpler... atleast try to be.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
jus came back to sg.=(
spending CNY wif my family back home is always an exciting event to me. =)
although every year we r doing the same thing.
this year, my dad bought a 3m long fire-crackers(is illegal to possess)and lighted it up on the first day, the crackling sounds were so loud and all our neighbours came to take a look, haha.
on the third day, we went to 'seremban'(fu rong)watched cj7=)))
quite a nice movie, but the ending is a bit sad to me...
on the fifth day, it was an unbelievable day to me.
i was still sleeping 'early' in the morning(abt 11+), then someone pressed our doorbell.
my sis kept yelling to me dat someone was looking for me. i was like O.o,as i noe no one there..
at last i still hurried out to meet him...
to my (most)shocking+surprise, he was my classmates long long long time ago when i was still studying in m'sia.
9yrs ago... we've not seen each other for dat long! it jus felt so strange.
after a short while of chi-chat, my classmates organised a visit to our primary sch teacher's house.
hoping on one if the car, surprisingly, i realised dat i can still rmb every each of their names ^^
thus, a total 10 of us, went shopping to buy a present for our teacher b4 going to visit her. =)
talking to them again after so many yrs is so weird... all were so young back in the time, and now, we r all 20. all has changed a lot, yet their personalities r still quite the same. seeing them brought back a lot of memmories, how i wish i can travel back in time. x)
many of them r working right now, some still studying, mst of them have left their hoemtown and gone to other parts of m'sia.
>.<
finally arrived at teacher's house.
my classmates decided to tick our teacher by saying dat he has brought his gf to visit her(which was 'me'), our teacher could not recognise me, and she came up to shake my hands. =P hha.
after my identity being exposed, we all had a gd chat abt the past.
being wif them make me feel young =p haha (i m the youngest among all the classmates), this kind of feelings has long been 'burried' =(
and now, back in sg, normal life resumes, start doing the same old thing.
like my poly teacher said--90% of life is misery.
is it true? haha, it depends on how u live ur life. =]
starting to miss home already...
spending CNY wif my family back home is always an exciting event to me. =)
although every year we r doing the same thing.
this year, my dad bought a 3m long fire-crackers(is illegal to possess)and lighted it up on the first day, the crackling sounds were so loud and all our neighbours came to take a look, haha.
on the third day, we went to 'seremban'(fu rong)watched cj7=)))
quite a nice movie, but the ending is a bit sad to me...
on the fifth day, it was an unbelievable day to me.
i was still sleeping 'early' in the morning(abt 11+), then someone pressed our doorbell.
my sis kept yelling to me dat someone was looking for me. i was like O.o,as i noe no one there..
at last i still hurried out to meet him...
to my (most)shocking+surprise, he was my classmates long long long time ago when i was still studying in m'sia.
9yrs ago... we've not seen each other for dat long! it jus felt so strange.
after a short while of chi-chat, my classmates organised a visit to our primary sch teacher's house.
hoping on one if the car, surprisingly, i realised dat i can still rmb every each of their names ^^
thus, a total 10 of us, went shopping to buy a present for our teacher b4 going to visit her. =)
talking to them again after so many yrs is so weird... all were so young back in the time, and now, we r all 20. all has changed a lot, yet their personalities r still quite the same. seeing them brought back a lot of memmories, how i wish i can travel back in time. x)
many of them r working right now, some still studying, mst of them have left their hoemtown and gone to other parts of m'sia.
>.<
finally arrived at teacher's house.
my classmates decided to tick our teacher by saying dat he has brought his gf to visit her(which was 'me'), our teacher could not recognise me, and she came up to shake my hands. =P hha.
after my identity being exposed, we all had a gd chat abt the past.
being wif them make me feel young =p haha (i m the youngest among all the classmates), this kind of feelings has long been 'burried' =(
and now, back in sg, normal life resumes, start doing the same old thing.
like my poly teacher said--90% of life is misery.
is it true? haha, it depends on how u live ur life. =]
starting to miss home already...
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
going back to my hometown later~
got to reunion wif my dearest family soon=)
it has been so long since we last parted, and i'm longing to see my parents so much.
pray hard dat later will not stuck in the traffic jam, which i think most propably will. zz
nah, at least i m going home no matter wat^^
is like a lot of ppl returning to their hometowns at this period if time, i still haven gotten my tickets for coming back to sg...so is a one-way ticket to my hometown, haha. i m getting a bit crappy now, zz because i m excited :) so jus bear wif me.
=) =) =) =) =)
jus completed the info-tech presentation, surprisingly the lecturer told us dat it was pretty well-done. O.o, i thought our group will barely get a passing grade at most. haha, atleast we did it^^ is tough for an IT idiot like me to do IT stuffs, and it was so technical as mention by my "qing ai de". glad to mention that my mcq for IT got 38/40, haha=p i should credit JT for scoring dis.
2 practical exams r over too~
cellbio pract seems to be a wriiten test rather than a practical,zz.
organic-chem,test for the unknown food sample, is kinda obvious since i m lucky enough to get a milk sample which has a disticnt 'milk-color', somemore it is soyabean milk which can be so easily identified simply wif a sniff. =.=
glad that is all over~ ^^ (though final exams r after CNY..)
my cousin has come to sg to celebrate CNY, but i m going back home... haha, gd luck to him, hope dat he wont be bore to tear when he was surrounded by a group of aunties(my aunties), =p, jus a casual remark.
wat else.... hm...
oh ya, yesterday's news abt the maid abusing baby really shocked me... poor baby of only 2mths got butally, cruelly abuse by the stupid maid...>.<
how could she do such a thing on such a cute and defendless baby.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ot22xZqLMMI
there r 6 parts to dis video which was recorded by the parents of the baby victim, wat a heartache to the mother after she watched her maid abusing her baby on the cctv... =(
the morale behind this incident is that--- never never never to let a maid to look after ur baby when u r not at home.
really a sad case, hope that the baby is all well.
got to reunion wif my dearest family soon=)
it has been so long since we last parted, and i'm longing to see my parents so much.
pray hard dat later will not stuck in the traffic jam, which i think most propably will. zz
nah, at least i m going home no matter wat^^
is like a lot of ppl returning to their hometowns at this period if time, i still haven gotten my tickets for coming back to sg...so is a one-way ticket to my hometown, haha. i m getting a bit crappy now, zz because i m excited :) so jus bear wif me.
=) =) =) =) =)
jus completed the info-tech presentation, surprisingly the lecturer told us dat it was pretty well-done. O.o, i thought our group will barely get a passing grade at most. haha, atleast we did it^^ is tough for an IT idiot like me to do IT stuffs, and it was so technical as mention by my "qing ai de". glad to mention that my mcq for IT got 38/40, haha=p i should credit JT for scoring dis.
2 practical exams r over too~
cellbio pract seems to be a wriiten test rather than a practical,zz.
organic-chem,test for the unknown food sample, is kinda obvious since i m lucky enough to get a milk sample which has a disticnt 'milk-color', somemore it is soyabean milk which can be so easily identified simply wif a sniff. =.=
glad that is all over~ ^^ (though final exams r after CNY..)
my cousin has come to sg to celebrate CNY, but i m going back home... haha, gd luck to him, hope dat he wont be bore to tear when he was surrounded by a group of aunties(my aunties), =p, jus a casual remark.
wat else.... hm...
oh ya, yesterday's news abt the maid abusing baby really shocked me... poor baby of only 2mths got butally, cruelly abuse by the stupid maid...>.<
how could she do such a thing on such a cute and defendless baby.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ot22xZqLMMI
there r 6 parts to dis video which was recorded by the parents of the baby victim, wat a heartache to the mother after she watched her maid abusing her baby on the cctv... =(
the morale behind this incident is that--- never never never to let a maid to look after ur baby when u r not at home.
really a sad case, hope that the baby is all well.
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