jus 2 posts back, i was waiting happily to go back to my hometown. and now, i m starting school already. dis shows how time flies.

my mum went back yesterday, i promised myself dat i would be strong, but couldn't make it. i bit my lips real hard, until now i still feel the swolleness.

every dis time, i will miss my parents and home more than ever, i cant even talk to them in phone properly in order to hide my distorted voice. i cant even smile.

i felt miserable.

and i m trying to isolate myself from the crowd. i need some time to adjust. some time will do.

i realised dat to smile while u dont wish to is the hardest thing to do ever.

《孤独》
被人群包围 却发觉自己的渺小
僵硬的笑容 才察觉自己的泪水
安静地呼吸着周遭的空气
怎么连空气都凝结成落寞
寂寞的身影藏匿于茫茫人海
被埋没却从未融入
无视的存在
让人倍感
孤独

exam is over!!!!! actually i m not in exam mood at the start, so it doesn't matter dat if exam is over or not, i jus wanna say only..haha, but if i m in secondary sch, i'll be on cloud nine when exam ends.
immediately after exam, i went to shopping alone. haiz...cant find anyone accompany me u c. the feeling of shopping alone is quite gd, wondering around, going to wherever i like, looking at watever i wan. feeling relax. the only bad thing is i'll realise how lonely i was. blah.
basically did window shopping. bought 4 chinese books, one of which is for my youngest sister.^^ i mus really read more chinese bks, i cant tolerate the thought dat my chinese is going to "tui bu" since i m dun hav chinese anymore and m interacting wif mostly english speaking friens....><
fruit basket22 is out!! finished reading it half an hour ago. it's nice^^ sweet and happy storylines. they r finally together.^^ wondering if 22 is the last epi, it seems like ending to me>.<

4 more hours and my mum will be here. i really miss my dad and mum. din c them for nearly half a year le.
and i m going home tmr!!!i cant wait to fly home immediately. lala~~
haha.
and yesterday was my father birthday. sent him a funny msg, but no present for him. haha.
20days later will be mum bd. dad's on 6/6, mum on 26/6. is easy to rmb.

came back from physiology common test. the paper is 1 and a half hour, but i able to finish it in 45min, so got off early. i cant undstd y my classmates or maybe friens dun wanna leave even they finished their paper, saying dat they nid to check and rechecked and re-recheck, maybe they will come up with answers they previously dun know. for goodness sake, dunnoe means dunnoe, even usit there for 1whole day, u wont be able to 'know' the ans. i noe i m getting quite pissed. not in a gd mood recently.
tmr no test, 2 more tests to go on wed and thurs.
maths stupid assignment dat is on famous mathematicians. physio essay, topic is "Depression: A psychological or neurological condition?" . microbio project on madcow disease.
all not even started. and i m going back to m'sia this friday. no internet at home. all works due on sch reopens.
all these equal to= i hav to complete my works b4 fri, and i m having tests till thurs.
*sigh
my heart starts to beat abnormally again, though quite frequent lately.