quite a lot of things happening these days
maybe i shouldn't say "a lot"
is jus dat i din expect them.....
i m confused now
feeling puzzled*
how come things turned out to be so unacceptable.





well,
i m not so ready

hi^^ i m here again~ feel dat i haven been here quite a long time><
haiz.... no choice, quite busy lately
i hav 2 projects to handle, one is abt "mad-cow disease" and the other is abt the "endocrine system'"...zzz.zzZ
actually i m quite interested in the Mad-cow disease project, the disease sounds 'cool' haha, weird rite, but i really like dis kind of stuff....O.o so, dis is microbiology...
microbiology practical is really really fun, not only is the teacher is gd and humorous, the handling and culturing of microbes r so fun^^ haha. maybe i hav made a right decision for choosing the course..

tmr i m going to hav yoga class, dunnoe how will it turn out to be.
hope it will be a enjoyable session..

i start to get use to poly life now, especially the long rides to and fro the schs...swt..-_-

eh... i dunnoe wat to write.... and my post seems short>.< and i seems to write randomly and craps...
maybe i should stop here.




i m still not ready
or
when will i?

new life

from monday onwards till now, the week has flew bylike a breeze. dis is the first week of my poly life, and i m still adjusting to the new lifestyle, everything is so different! for the first 3 days,i really cant get use to it...>< got a culture shock, haha, cos it was very tiring.
my sch is situated at one of the highest spot in the whole poly, i nid to climb up the quite steep slope everyday.... and i m always out of breath when i reached the LSCT, which is my sch.>_< haha...T.T poor me..poor LSCT students....
however, the practicals seems to be quite fun.^^ especially the microbiology pract, it was relly fun...^_^, we learned to make GNA, which is a medium for micro-organism to live in. and we r going to "culture" microrganism, haha, how excited^^.
the WORST thing is---- i hav to learn A-maths.....!#!%@&%(&))(_*^$ i hav tried so hard to pass a-math during secondary sch, and finally i thought it was all over after Olvl, then i nid to take dis sunject again....haiz....fell like banging the wall><
today, i've chosen Yoga to be my sport & wellness's sport. which means dat yoga will be one of my modules dat last for only one semester or 13weeks. the funny thing is, at the end of dis module, we hav to take an "exam" to see if we pass the module. i was wondering.....wat r they going to test us for yoga....test our flexibility? haha..
poly life can be fun if u learn to enjoy.... dis is wat i figure out since dis week...^^

tmr will be going to my sch to get my laptop things done, then sch will be starting next monday.
strangely, i quite look forward to starting sch, though i haven made any friends yet..><
and i nid to buy lots of things.....zzz
1. white robe for practical in lab^^( dunnoe y i always hav fantacy in dis haha)
2. goggles for practical
3. shoes which cover my toes..><
4. shorts/pants.><
5. laptop carrier (mine is too huge abd heavy)
all these aren't cheap leh... big hole in my wallet soon..T.T
oso, i hav calculated my transport cost roughly... each day i will hav to pay abt $3-4 for transportations,abt $20 a week, then $80 a month, and!!!!!almost 1k in a year....wth.><
din noe dat going to sch only will nid to pay dat much....zzz


next week will be a busy week for sure, but at least better than staying home and slack rite? yea^^
meeting new friends, exploring new sch environment, stepping into new phase of life.... all sound so... so gd..^^
well, hope dat can make friends within the shortest period of time~ i cant stand lonliness><


oh, btw, dis week i hav encountered some embarrassments...><
on wednesday, i went to my sch for a briefing, then realised dat my Ez-link had no cash left, instead it reads $-0.01, it's negative value.>< then when i boarded a bus to go home after briefing, i discovered dat i hav no coins for bus fare.
wth....i asked the bus driver if he got change for me, omg, everyone's staring at me...><><><
the bus fee is only 90cents though...-_-
secondly, yesterday night when HW signed in msn, i happily went to say hi to her... erm usually i would say"hi er zi~", well dis is common scene between our small 'family' mah...haha
then i realised dat er zi had change her display name, i was wondering y... after a few seconds, to my horror! er zi din change her display name! i sent my "greeting msg" to Marvin......
oh dear.... he mus be in a state of shock since i suddednly call him er zi...-_-lll
luckily he dun mind...haha~ how embarrassing..


later at night, i chatted till midnight wif piggy and monkey...haha^^ monkey is really a headache to me><><
i hav been getting use to sleep in late, so afraid dat i m unable to get rid of dis habbit when sch starts, i really dun wanna hav a pair of panda eyes to sch everyday...>< zzz~
ok, i will sleep earlier from now onwards...

oh i went to cut my hair le...
due to the rain stopping early, my 'date' with HW was postponed for one hour later....lol><
quite satisfied by my new hair cut, but would be happier if my hair is longer.
nvm, my hair grows very fast..^^



dunnoe for wat reason, my heart beats unnormally...
i m wondering y...
is it becourse of wat i m thinking now?
*sigh, i hope dat i wont get into it.....

planned to cut my hair wif HW at 11.30am later, but now it is raining heavily...... i would be drenched even wif an umbrella if i walk to HW's area...(too bad there is no sheltered walkway provided) >< so no choice but to postpone our "date" ^^
as a result, i m sitting here writing a post.
my hair has grown long and messy, and sch is starting next week, i can't possibly go to sch wif such messy hair though i think of keeping my hair long again. maybe next time bah...~
but i m wondering now...will long hair suit me??? haha i m thinking too far ahead..=x


i jus read from the newspaper, is abt a malay man who raped his daughter wif the aids of his wives. dis is not a shocking news anyway(no offence), wat shocked me is dat.... the man has 10wives!!! other than dat, his 10wives hav produced him 64 children!!!!!
jus look at the number, is way too scary><
dis family live in 2 7-rooms flats,with gals sleeping in one flat while the boys in the other. jus think of dat, they hav to prepare 75portions of food each day 3meals... ...3x75=225!!!
now the man went to jail, his wives hav to support the awesomely huge family, wat a heavy burden...

i m feeling quite unhappy lately, couldn’t find a person who is willing to lend me his/her ears… i jus feel insecure, insecure of whatever I m doing, insecure of wat will tmr be…
sometimes i refuse to show my true feelings in front of others, i believe dat dis will only make things worse. maybe dat’s y they all told me dat i m difficult to handle, really?

oh well, wat i wanna say now is, dun act to be understood me when u r not. i already tired of all these. i nid real understanding, not others, ok? they jus dun seems to noe all these, wat can i say…… i hav dis miserable feeling…*sigh

and the other thing is, a person shouldn’t throw temper on other ppl(which is me) jus bcos the person is unhappy rite? dun they noe dat it hurts? y cant they jus understand dis simple thing? wat do they gain by hurting others like dat, will their anger jus go away after they did so? argh……………………..

i try hard to hypnotize myself dat everything will turn out to be fine, does it work? well, i dunnoe how to answer dat. will tmr be better?

april fool today! nth much happened...
i went to a farm dis morning, veggie farm. actually decided to go goat farm at first, but due to intensive traffic jam(cos is qing ming jie, ppl rush to pay respect to the deaths), we had to change our plan...>< i wanted to go goat farm badly, maybe, can play wif the goats?
nvm, veggie farm not bad oso....(self-consolation) haha
the farm is quite huge, located at a 'ulu ulu' place. to me, it's nice, at least it is something new from hdb flats....buildings...etc
lots of veggie there, cheap oso. dat's y my aunt bought 11 diff types of veggie, onl $10plus..! think we got to be vegetarians for the following days...haa


maybe next time bah, i'll definitely visit the goat farm de ^o^


let's talk abt other things. my laptop cant go online!!!!! my modem is not compatible wif window vista>< wat should i do? haiz...
i hav told the situation to my cousin, her husband told me dat i nid to get a wireless network at home, so i can use my wireless to online. they still haven help me to fix the prob...T.T where should i get the wireless network? wat to do to apply for one? .... how m i going to noe these....argh....i noe least of computer things.....haiz, so helpless now.
hope dat everything will be all fine when i wake up.... is it possible? haha?